I have either been promising or indicating that I will “help” or “try” to a lot lately, to almost every Nepali person that I have met so far.

I get a range of requests such as wanting to learn more or practice speaking English with me, editing assistance with their CV’s and job applications, advice on how to get into Canada, and other flattering requests, for which it would mean the world to them and that I find the most difficult to fulfill, is to travel to their home villages, meet their immediate family members, having dinner with them, and even spend time with people individually.

All of these requests, as easy, unreasonable and genuine as they are exponentially add up, especially when your time and mental energy is limited. I can imagine it only gets more challenging when I befriend more and more people over time (sometimes I wish I was a jerk @!#$).

I have a really hard time saying no because I really want to do them all. The main fundamental reason for why we are here is to help (sharing skills, changing lives).

Just seeing their sad looks on their faces when I leave and hoping that I return to fulfill their wishes is really heart-breaking to see (the last group that I met was grown men mind you).

I’m going to work my @#%$! off trying.